michael

<------Michael

well i have only told you that michael made me set this up..... but i didnt tell you that im falling for michael more then i ever have before! i know he is reading this so i cant really say much, i mean i got a reputation and all hehe. but i would give anything for him to be here right now sitting next to him. i talk to him on the phone and i dont even want to say anything because i just want to hear his voice. wow that sounds really gay but its true.
just now i was watching music videos and all i could see in them were the love part of them, not the brakeup. i want this feeling i have for him to never go away. could this be it? damn i dono. i mean we have only been together for a week or so but i really really dont want anthing to happen to him. even thou i have not told him that im worried about when he goes to iraq i really am, but he really wants to go so its not like i can do anything about it. i keep telling him to be strong and it will be ok but its so hard for me to believe that myself and im the one saying it. no matter how he comes back i will always be there for him! he is everything to me!