so happy.....

Tommy is coming tomorrow, its going to be great! its been so long since he was little and now he is as grown up. its going to be so fun!

well about michael.... he read what i had to say. he didnt know i was worried about him, but how do you tell someone that you want them to never leave you, never go anywere without you, love them forever with out freaking them out? i mean i would do anything for him. i would die for him. is there a way for someone to be SO in love with out even dating someone for long?
ok so i have said "i love you" before but i have never really felt it. now i do. im so worried that im not the right person for him. what if he finds someone better? i dont ever want to lose him. OR what if the worst should happen? what if he never comes home to me? i dont think i could could live with out him right now. i mean he is the one that got me throw cassie and her shit. he is the one that makes me smile. if he ever left me or never came back to me, i wouldnt be able to smile.
that reminds me, he is always telling me to smile but the only time i really smile is when i hear his voice. i mean today i was singing to him on the phone because he was going to sleep and i didnt want him too. and trust me, i cant sing if my life was in danger so it was kinda funny. but he told me not to stop so i was just going on and on hehe. he really loves me and i cant believe why. i mean im not the best girlfriend. im always talking to my guy friend (i dont have any girlfriends but the ones back in houston) and all my other boyfriend worried that i would cheat (and i did) but with michael i dont even want to talk to the guys. i just want to be with him.

ok so on an other subject.... there is this chick that i used to talk to in hawaii, terrie, and she is married and cheats on her husband thats in iraq and i feel really bad for him... i mean he is out there everyday putting his life on the line. i mean i know i have cheated, but never on a husband. its different when your dating, but if you marry that person you should never do that! but anyways she started talking to me today. well she saw a pic of michael and said he was really cute and all i could think was "he is mine BITCH!" that just pisses me off! she is FUCKING married for god sake! but i guess that just means i picked good lol