things on my mind

ok well tommy got in today. he is so big! he is not the little boy that i used to know. but he is still just as sweet. when he saw me he didnt know it was his aunt lisa hehe. but he gave me a really big hug and thats really what i needed at the time. but there is a story so here i go......
ok so lastnight me and michael were talking about when he leaves and today when i was at the air port there were guys that were going to iraq. they were leaveing when i was there. and dont get me wrong they were hot as hell, but all i could think about was michael. i didnt even look back at the guys when they were looking at me and thats a first for me beacuse im one girl that loves to eyefuck someone, but i just really really didnt want to. it was so hard to see them leave beacuse i was not seeing them i was seeing michael and it hurt. i about cried. i want to be there when he leave and when he gets back. for the first time in my life i just want to be there for someone other then me. i mean i would give the world to be with him. i dont want him to leave! im going to cry forever when he leaves. i just dont know what im going to do, i mean im going to be in ait so i cant just go and see him off. i dono how thats going to work but i really really REALLY want to be there for when he leaves. i mean i know im going to be able to make if when he is coming back. so i WILL be there for him and standing there just waiting to give him the best hug and kiss of his life! im going to be that one girl that he is so happy to see and i know it! that gives me the best feeling in the world. all warm and fuzzy! THE BEST. but then i remember for him to come home he has to leave and i dont want that! i just wish i knew how things would end up.
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